HELLO IF ANY ONE CAN PLEASE SHARE SOME HELP OR EVEN TELL WHERE I CAN CALL WRITE EMAIL OR WHAT EVER TO GET A GRANT, MY STORY IS I AM A 31 YR OLD FEMALE WHO WANTS TO BE A MOM ME AND MY HUSBAND HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR 4 YEARS AND WE CAN NOT HAVE ANY CHILDREN WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH AND IT ALL SEAMS TO FAIL WE TRIED FERTILITY PILLS, IVFS, EGG DONOR, EVEN TRIED ADOPTION AND SEEMS LIKE THERE IS NO END I PRAY EVERYNIGHT TO BECOME A MOM AND MY STORY GOES ON TO A SAY STORY THAT HAS NO END YET.
I felt like I was in a coma. 2005, I was pumping 200 times the hormones of a normal pregnant woman into her body every day, hoping an embryo would implant. I had spent years trying to have a baby and had gone through four in-vitro fertilizations.
The hormones thickened MY blood and left ME exhausted, sluggish. I risked a stroke or heart attack.
This fourth try at in-vitro would be their last.
Money for the $10,000 procedures was running out. So was hope that they’d ever have a child of their own.
The LOCAL MISSISSIPPI couple had dreamed of joining the many newlyweds who start families right away. But as years passed and children didn’t come, they tried other ways to become parents.
Their desire would take them on a quest, a seemingly impossible journey of joy and anguish that would lead them across the country, chasing their last hope for a child. BY 2005, they were both 30 and decided they couldn’t wait any longer. They’d take matters into their own hands, find their own baby.
That spring, through connections at MY SISTERS church in INDIANA., they talked with a young couple in CONNERSVILLE who agreed to let them adopt their baby.
They were BABYS themselves, really. Pregnant with a little GIRL WE DIDN'T CARE AS LONG AS WE WAS BLESSED WITH A BABY THEY WERE very scared, and with little commitment to each other.
The two couples talked on the phone and e-mailed back and forth. WE WENT TO INDIANA 12 HOURS AWAY for a week, and the birth parents spent a week visiting US IN MISSISSIPPI.
All four grew close.
“As soon as I met them for the first time, I knew it was meant to be; that he was going to be ours,”
WE busied OUR selves buying baby items and preparing a nursery for ABIGALE , as they decided to call their DAUGHTER .
They cleared out the guest bedroom and painted it YELLOW with PINK accents. I pored over books about children’s brain development, learning what type of toys and discipline were appropriate for each stage.
I told everyone at church that their prayers were finally being answered.
The birth mother had even asked US to be there when she delivered and agreed to call when it was time.
One midweek morning in 2005, the phone rang.
On the other end of the line was the young father’s mother, but she didn’t sound like an overjoyed new grandma should. The baby had come overnight, she said.
And the birth mom just couldn't do it — couldn't go through with the adoption.
They were sorry — so sorry, she said.
WE sat together and cried among the bags they had packed for the trip to INDIANA
I curled up in her bed to weep. MY HUSBAND went to THE GYM to LIFT t a couple hundred POUNDS.
Later, I called their pastor and he came over to talk and pray by their side. the rest of that day and the ones that followed passed in a daze. I isolated MY self to sort through MY emotions. Friends and family sent cards expressing their condolences. They gave the couple gift certificates to go out to dinner and have some quiet time together.
About a week later, the birth mother called.
For the next month or two, WE secretly kept thinking the newness would wear off and the young couple would call and offer them the baby.
Finally, she convinced herself they weren't going to change their minds.
"To me, it felt like I had had a baby and SHE had died," she said. "I had been carrying HER around in my heart as if he had died." WELL THAT WAS THE END OF OUR JOUNEY WE COULD NOT TAKE NO MORE AND 2005 WAS ABOUT TO BE OVER SO WE THOUGHT MAYBE A NEW YEAR WELL LOOSING MY FATHER IN FEBUARY AND MY HUSBAND MOTHER 1 MONTH AGO I FEEL AS I NEED TO TRY ONE MORE TIME SO HERE WE ARE AND WE SEEKING ANY ADVICE, HELP, DONATION ANY THING OR IF YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO ADOPT THERE BABY WE WOULD BE BLESSED WE ARE LOVING HONORABLE CHRISTIAN PEOPLE WHO WANT TO BE PARENTS.
GOD BLESS
